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This is a 6-week journey of reflection using the material Duty or Delight? Knowing where you stand with God by Tammy Head

Duty or Delight? – Week 6

I finished week 6 on the second week of July. Going through all the sessions had really helped me big time. Week 6 talked about victory. It was a reminder for me that no matter what, I have been victorious when I received the Lord Jesus in my life. He has won all the battles even the future ones for me. I just have to live that victorious life.

As I close this journey, I could not really show how God has really been amazing for the past months in my life. But, really, He has been. I am overwhelmed. It had been an interesting ride. It was journey that I had to walk alone with God and it was a life changing one.

Now, I continue my life looking forward to more interesting journeys.

I just want to leave again this verse, Psalm 37:4
“Delight yourself in the Lord, and he will give you the desires of your heart.”

Always, always delight in the Lord. 🙂

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Duty or Delight? – Week 5



I had finished Week 5 about two weeks ago. I just had the time now to write about it.


Week 5 I must say is my favorite week. It’s about L-O-V-E.  And, that week was really special because the message totally made a huge impact with the way I think and feel towards the things that I’ve been dealing lately.


But anyways…I just want to talk about God’s love.


Have you ever tried comprehending or understanding the love of God for you? I tried sometimes. But, we just can’t right? We can never find the right words to explain it. Instead, we just accept it and embrace it wholeheartedly. I know how much God loves me. He greatly displayed His love through our Savior, the Lord Jesus Christ.  And, He did that for all of us. But, what’s nice about our Father? He never stops showing His love. He is just so sweet! 


During this week 5, God has revealed to me something that really changed my heart. I must say, He spoke straight to my heart.  I just found myself, not thinking, not analyzing, not questioning but peacefully trusting, accepting and smiling. I was in awe! That’s the right word. I felt God working in me, just loving me. 🙂 
(And now, I’m smiling again as I’m typing this.)


As God loves us, teaching us what love is and how to love, we should also respond to that love. But, as simple as it may sound, it is not that easy. That’s why He commanded us to love Him. 


Loving God means worshiping Him through spiritual disciplines and serving Him. We could do that, right? How about loving God means loving the person that you can’t stand to be with? Well, that’s hard, isn’t it? That’s why Jesus made it also a commandment, to love our neighbors. 


God taught me ‘Forgiveness’ in a very hard way…always the hard way. But, it made me better. It has taught me to love God more. It has even made me understand more of God’s character, the great Forgiver. 


How about you? How has God been teaching you about loving Him lately? Obedience is an act of love for God. Do you agree?


Deuteronomy 6:5 
“Love the LORD your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength.”




Duty or Delight? – Week 4



There were three important things I noted in my journal which I believed God wanted me to be reminded of.


Rely
Pruning
Repentance


During this week 4 journey, I re-examined my self on how much have I been relying in the Holy Spirit.  It’s sad that most of the time, I don’t.  Especially when things seem to be so easy to control, I just go on, on my own. I realized how much blessings I missed of not continuously relying in the Helper.  I’m just grateful that the Holy Spirit never stopped knocking at my heart and made me see that I need Him in my day to day. 


Are you familiar with how the branches of the grape vine are being pruned? Do you know that Jesus figuratively called us the branches, as He is the vine? When we started bearing bad fruits, the gardener who is God will start pruning us so that we will start again bearing good fruits. I’m in a pruning period right now. There are just a lot of things that God has been dealing with me lately. The process of pruning is never delightful but always painful. But, you know what? Jesus is the vine. No matter what, He will hold us together.


And part of pruning is constant repentance. That’s why we need the Holy Spirit. Someone who will always remind us and help us resist in going back to our old self. It’s never easy. I can attest to that. I’m still a work in progress also. But, we should never give up and just continue to find strength in God to overcome temptations. Repentance is also a day to day thing.


When you plant something, do you check from time to time the condition of your plant? Or if it bears fruit, do you check if it is a good fruit? One thing I always forget to do in my Christian walk is inspecting my crops. What are the condition of my fruits? Are they pleasing to God? I pray that I will learn to inspect. It’s also a way for me to  see if what I’ve been doing have been glorifying to God or just simply pleasing myself.


“Even if I caused you sorrow by my letter, I do not regret it. Though I did regret it—I see that my letter hurt you, but only for a little while— yet now I am happy, not because you were made sorry, but because your sorrow led you to repentance. For you became sorrowful as God intended and so were not harmed in any way by us. Godly sorrow brings repentance that leads to salvation and leaves no regret, but worldly sorrow brings death. See what this godly sorrow has produced in you: what earnestness, what eagerness to clear yourselves, what indignation, what alarm, what longing, what concern, what readiness to see justice done. At every point you have proved yourselves to be innocent in this matter.” 2 Cor 7:8-11


Duty or Delight? – Week 3



When you are so down to the mouth, it’s really comforting and encouraging when you are reminded of God’s character and of who He really is in your life. If you will agree, it is really when we have adversities in our life that we come to know Him more in a very personal way. 


Since week 3 of my D or D journey, I have started praying the same prayer Paul had for the Ephesians. 


“I keep asking that the God of our Lord Jesus Christ, the glorious Father, may give you the Spirit of wisdom and revelation, so that you may know him better. I pray also that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the hope to which he has called you, the riches of his glorious inheritance in the saints…” – Ephesians 1:17-18


Are you always amazed of God’s faithfulness? I am. Everyday. Every end of the day, I would just look back and wonder how I survived that day without grumbling. I can’t help but praise God and thank Him for His faithfulness that no matter what, He will sustain me. But what amazes me more? – God’s faithfulness even if we grumble or disobey Him. I’m just glad that He is not like us. He always keeps His promises even if we are unfaithful to Him. Remember the story of Israel? 


I remembered one blog that I read saying that I am not that powerful to influence how another person would behave. Well, it’s true. We never have the power to change or transform a person. Only God could do that. And we could only be transformed through His Son, Jesus Christ. Why do we need Jesus? Because God knows that no matter what, we will continue to disobey Him. There’s nothing we can do to live up to His standard and that’s why He made a way for us. I’m just glad that God made a new covenant. How about you?


I want to share these verses to you: Ezekiel 36:26, Psalm 86:11, Jeremiah 32:39. I hope you’ll look them up. They all have one thing in common – heart. Do you know why God said in Prov 4:23 that above all things, we should guard our heart? Because He also said that the heart is deceitful above all things (Jeremiah 17:9). That’s why it is important that we always walk in God’s protection. It is only in Him that we will have the strength to truly guard our heart. But what if you’re heart right now is shattered? I suggest you look up those verses. God can give you a new heart. Isn’t that amazing?


Because God always protects us, He will always hold us together even if we really wanted to just give up. He will never let go. Jesus is described as the chief cornerstone because He is the foundation of the church. He unites us all. He is the Rock that will never be destroyed by any force. Are you standing on the strongest Rock? If not, you might want to throw that rock. It’s never too late.


One of the things I really struggle with is memorizing verses in the Bible. It’s really good that we have a weapon that we could use to defend when the enemy attacks us. Jesus promised us the Holy Spirit. In John 14:26, Jesus said, “But the Counselor, the Holy Spirit, whom the Father will send in my name, will teach you all things and will remind you of everything I have said to you.” The Holy Spirit will always remind us even the verses that we thought we don’t know to overcome any temptation. 


If you will be asked what is your greatest inheritance, what would your answer be? How about God? The one who chose you before the creation of the world, who redeemed you by sacrificing His Son, who remains faithful, who transforms and protects you, who strengthens you. God is my greatest inheritance and no one could ever take that from me.

i picked up this rock at english bay so that i will be reminded 
WHO I am standing on


Duty or Delight? – Week 2



Week 2 was a less painful week. God has slowly been changing my mind and heart on how I see things. It was a sweet week! I got refreshed with God’s Word and He gave me a ‘kilig’ feeling for the past days. I remembered the words of my friend and I re-phrase it – God just knows how to make you ‘kilig’ especially at your brokenness. 🙂


I was made to reflect this week on the Body and Blood of Jesus. As the author Tammie Head says, “Eat more Bread, Drink more Blood”.  


Are you familiar with the story of the Israelites and on how they were freed by God from Egypt? Do you know what one of their problems was? Dissatisfaction. God promised them a land that would be full of riches but they couldn’t wait. In the middle of their journey, they kept on complaining. Can you relate to them? I can. At some point, we all want to be free from something that we’ve been struggling but we are not willing to go through the process of pain. We want to be satisfied instantly. Who doesn’t?


I’ve been reminded this week of Jesus being the Bread of Life (John 6:35). I understood why Tammie said eat more Bread. Because only Jesus can give us the bread that will never make us hungry. It is only in Jesus that we will be satisfied no matter what circumstance we are in. 


And what’s another good news? That no matter what, God accepts us because we’ve been covered by the Blood of Jesus. I’m guilty of feeling ‘guilty’ when I feel that what I do for God is never enough. I realized that I was trying to do a performance in front of God which He really doesn’t need. What God wants is a heart that delights in Him. It doesn’t matter what is our position when we pray, either we sit or stand or kneel. It doesn’t matter how we worship Him, either we lift our hands or we just close our eyes. Our heart is what matters to Him. It  doesn’t matter if our past if so messed up. If we accept Jesus in our life, His Blood has covered those already. And when the Father looks at us, He accepts us through Jesus. Isn’t God amazing? 🙂


I learned two things: 
Guilt leads to Performance
Conviction leads to Repentance


Which one is yours?


I pray that I will fully enjoy the rights and blessings of redemption that God has offered to us through Jesus Christ. And I pray, that it will be your prayer too.


As I ended week 2, I celebrated the Body and Blood of Jesus through a personal communion. It was actually my first time to do this. I should be doing more of this. You should too. 🙂





“In him we have redemption through his blood, the forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God’s grace that he lavished on us with all wisdom and understanding.” — Ephesians 1: 7-8

Duty or Delight? – Day 3 and 4

You might be wondering what’s with the picture.  Most of you might not know that I have huge burn mark on my right leg. If you’ll see in the picture, those darker brown areas are the marks. I had them when I was 2 or 3 years old I think (I can confirm that with Mama). Yes, I got burned at a very young age. It’s somehow the reason why I seldom wear shorts or skirts or dresses. I just don’t want to show my mark.  A short story about it? It was because of a very hot water. Our helper asked my sister Amity to transfer the water to the thermos while she’s watching me. Well, she sat me on the table just beside the thermos. So when Amity was pouring the water, it spilled and the water went down to my right leg. The rest is history.       
            
Day 2 and 3 of my journey on Duty or Delight was about shame and fear.    My sins made me hide sometimes from God because I got ashamed of what I did. At the same time, I also fear for the outcome of my sins. I realized these reactions are nothing new. Adam and Eve hid behind the trees to cover up their nakedness. They got ashamed. But, God didn’t want them to hide forever that’s why He made them garment. I was once again reminded of what Jesus did for me in the cross. He became the covering of my sins so that when God looks at me, He will see the Lord Jesus. He will not see my brokenness and messy life. The enemy will always make us feel ashamed and fearful that’s why it’s very important that we will always look up unto our Savior.

Do you know what is amazing about God? And will forever amaze me? That He has chosen us despite the person that we were becoming. That’s why there is no reason for us to feel obligated , to feel insecure, to feel ashamed and to be fearful.  Because no matter what, He has already chosen us.  That will not change anymore. 

I was deeply moved by God tonight that I just jumped off from my bed and made Him a card. I want to share what I wrote to Him. 


The reason why I showed my burn mark is because I don`t want to hide it anymore. I`m not ashamed of it anymore. It`s a reminder of how I had fought that pain and endured it. Starting today, I`m not allowing my failures, my shortcomings, my pains and brokenness in the past hinder me in coming to God.  I was handpicked by God already before anything else. I just want to move forward with a heart that is not in a duty for God, but a heart that delights in Him.

I encourage you to delight in the Lord too.


1 Peter 2:9
But you are not like that, for you are a chosen people. You are royal priests,a holy nation, God’s very own possession. As a result, you can show others the goodness of God, for he called you out of the darkness into his wonderful light.


Duty or Delight? – Day 1 and 2



Just a background of what Duty or Delight is…


It is a book I purchased online from Life Way store. It is a 6-week journey book of knowing where you stand with God which is based on the Scripture of Ephesians 1:3-23. It is pink and I love it! 🙂 But more than that, it is a book which is totally applicable to the journey I’m going through right now. A journey of re-discovering myself. And knowing where I stand with God is the best way to start it. By the way, the author of the book is Tammie Head. You can google her or the book if you want. 🙂


The first week talks about the different pitfalls of feeling being chosen by God. I realized that I’m totally into those pitfalls. 


Day 1 was about the first pitfall which is twisted theology. There were these 2 check boxes in the book. I felt sad when the box I checked was that I felt I was the one pursuing God. The other check box was that God was the one pursuing me. I was reminded by Ephesians 1:4 that God has chosen me even before the creation of the world. That it wasn’t because of who I am, but because He has already planned of pursuing me even before the world. Isn’t it sweet? 🙂 


Day 2 was about the second pitfall which is my insecurity. Do you ever have that feeling that what you’re doing for God is never enough? That if you just miss a day without reading His Word or doing your quiet time, you feel guilty and you felt like you’ve totally failed God? Sad to say, but I do. And I realize that there is nothing I would do that could lessen God’s love for me. When I read Genesis 3:7-10 – it was when Adam and Eve hid behind the trees because they got ashamed of their nakedness, then when I read Genesis 3:21 – God made garments of skin for Adam and Even, my heart crushed. I realized how insecure I am with God’s love. At the same time, I became in love with God more. God would still want me even if I’m broken. 


Day 3?? It will be on my next blog. 


I just want to praise God for giving me the chance to be better, not by my own effort, but all because of His love and grace through the Lord Jesus Christ.


🙂