Tag: server


Lord, you know the greatest desire of my heart and that is to serve you with all of me. Right now, I just don’t know if I’m still able to do that for you. At work, I feel like I’m a different person from the person you wanted me to be. I don’t know if I’m influencing people in my workplace and if I’m glorifying you. I don’t know if I’m able to really share my faith to them and if it has an impact in their lives. I just feel Lord that I am not able to maximize the gifts, the time, the resources that you have given me to serve you. I know that it’s not about what I can do for you Lord. It’s a matter of my heart. I just really don’t know Lord if where I am now is really where you still want me to be. This has been an ongoing battle for me to stay or to leave. It’s very easy to just say I quit from my work but the truth is I really don’t know what steps to take after. Where should I go? What should I do? There are so many things I want to do for you which I don’t know if those things you’ve prepared for me to do. Lord please help me to have the boldness to really stand for what you want for me. To have the faith and the wisdom to take the next step. Right now, I feel exhausted with work and really stuck. I just don’t know if me staying in the team is still the right thing. Show to me Lord. All I want is to serve you. But how can I do it?

Written on 04/26/13


Deep Thoughts on Missions

Since I chose the intimacy road with the Lord, doing missions has crossed my mind several times. The desire is there and then it would die down. Then, it would come back again, die d own again. And recently, such desire came back again.

I’ve really been thinking, praying, really asking God about it. Just yesterday, I was reading Ephesians 2, and in verse 10 – “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.” I asked God, “What else have You prepared for me to do? ”  

My passion is the Lord and comes with it is serving Him in ways that He shows me how. As what I always say to my self, it is a great privilege for an ordinary person like me to be used by God.  And it is always an immeasurable joy to serve Him!

I still don’t know if this is really what God wants me to do for Him. Where I am is my mission field. And when time comes He will answer my question, wherever or however  – it doesn’t matter as long as I’m serving the King of kings.

Hope you’ll pray with me on this too. 🙂