How many times have you given up on waiting? What’s the most difficult part when you wait? God has brought me into so many waiting seasons in my life, including now. Who would have thought I would once again be on this season of looking for work and waiting on the right opportunity for me? It’s tempting to worry and get ahead of God, settling for what’s easy.
But, I’ve experienced God’s faithfulness so many times already that this time, I can’t fret anymore. It’s really because of who He is and His grace that I can keep walking by faith.
More than looking forward to that day of Him providing me job, I’m just excited of what He is doing to my life in my day to day. That’s what is making my waiting more exciting – His daily presence in my life. I’m running, walking, waiting – but I’m not weary.
I hope that you find strength in Jesus always, whatever you are waiting for, entrust your life, your future, your today to Jesus. He’s got this. Just believe.
Lord, you know the greatest desire of my heart and that is to serve you with all of me. Right now, I just don’t know if I’m still able to do that for you. At work, I feel like I’m a different person from the person you wanted me to be. I don’t know if I’m influencing people in my workplace and if I’m glorifying you. I don’t know if I’m able to really share my faith to them and if it has an impact in their lives. I just feel Lord that I am not able to maximize the gifts, the time, the resources that you have given me to serve you. I know that it’s not about what I can do for you Lord. It’s a matter of my heart. I just really don’t know Lord if where I am now is really where you still want me to be. This has been an ongoing battle for me to stay or to leave. It’s very easy to just say I quit from my work but the truth is I really don’t know what steps to take after. Where should I go? What should I do? There are so many things I want to do for you which I don’t know if those things you’ve prepared for me to do. Lord please help me to have the boldness to really stand for what you want for me. To have the faith and the wisdom to take the next step. Right now, I feel exhausted with work and really stuck. I just don’t know if me staying in the team is still the right thing. Show to me Lord. All I want is to serve you. But how can I do it?
Written on 04/26/13